So I am going away for a much needed girls' weekend. I am so excited I can barely contain myself! BUT, I have never been away from the kids in the 3+ years that they have been around. I'm a little nervous. I'm sure THEY will be fine, it's ME I'm worried about. It's causing me a little anxiety, but I am pushing through it. I know that I will be a better Mommy and person when I get back and they deserve that. So...Arizona...here I come!
I was watching and listening to the kids play yesterday and it hit me....they are growing up. They seem like such little people. They have the funniest conversations with each other and with us! I walked into the bathroom yesterday and the following conversation took place
Me: Hi Sofia, ready to go?
Sofia: Not yet Mommy. Daddy and I are talking about games
Me: Oh
Sofia: You will have to wait a little while ( with finger wagging at me!)
Me: Oh, ok...
So it dawned on me, that sooner rather than later, I will have kids and not toddlers or babies. I think that realization has made me miss the baby stage even more. It seems like the past 3 yrs have gone by in such a flurry of diapers, schedules, bottles, and milestones. It's amazing to see these little people develop their personality and I feel so lucky that they have let me be part of that.
Sometimes I wake up and decide to throw caution to the wind and let the kids play with something that will most likely create a huge mess. Today's adventure: Curious George stamps from the Target $1 spot. The great thing is I got 10-15 minutes of quiet time, the price was I ended up with blue kids. It's a small price to pay. Of course Ryan wasn't nearly the mess that Sofia was and he is still upset that I was unable to get all the blue off his hands. Overall it was a
success!
So what is it about Target that has me incapable of leaving the store for less than $50 and usually not less than $100. It really is amazing. I think they have and evil genius marketing plan!
Mondays are not my favorite day. Not only because it signifies the end of the weekend, but because as a rule they usually wear me out. I don't think the kids like Mondays either...they miss having Daddy around.
So this weekend was a success. On Saturday I took a much needed break and went to the outlet mall on my OWN. I know...shocking! To be able to browse the stores and stroll around without someone whining was amazing. I stopped by Starbucks and got myself a Frappucino and some cake. It was nice to wallow in my aloneness. I think I need to do it more often. I need to remember what it was like to just be me, and not just Mom. I think so many of us lose ourselves in our kids. It felt great to take a break from the Mom role, and it also made it feel great to come back home and step right back into it.
Sunday we split the kids up and I took Sofia to the mall for some 1-on-1 time. I think it's something that we are going to do on a regular basis. They really need some time to be individuals and not just twins. They are completely different in the absence of each other and I think it's fantastic for them to not have to share us, even if it's just once in a while.
The human mind has an amazing capability to forget. Don't misunderstand, we're also great at remembering. There are so many things that I have conveniently forgotten. Everyone knows that when you have a baby that sleep will be at a shortage, this is even more so with 2 babies. Eventually their sleeping time lengthens as does yours. If you're lucky some day they start sleeping through the night. I think when the sleeping through the night happens, it is also when the forgetting happens. Our bodies forget what it's like to be up every 2 hours and to survive on stolen moments of sleep. We get comfortable with the idea that we get a full nights sleep and we can't even remember what it was like to walk around like a zombie for months. Let's face it if we didn't forget that feeling nobody would have any more kids after that first one(s). So it's quite a shock to the system when 3 yrs later you have a rough night of little sleep. Such was the case last night. Derek got home late from a business trip and woke me up. I start to drift off to sleep and I hear crying, I drag myself out of bed and up the stairs...Ryan is thirsty. So I give him water and go back to bed. A couple hours later I hear Sofia screaming for her frog. Now someone will have to explain to me how in the middle of the night while she is sleeping she can tell that her frog fell off the bed. So I drag myself up the stairs..AGAIN...and get the frog. Back to bed for me. A couple hours later I hear a horrible screeching whining about needing to go to the bathroom. So I drag myself up the stairs AGAIN! I take Sofia to the bathroom (ah the joys of potty training). I convince her to go back to bed even though it's starting to get light out and I go back to bed. So this morning I'm feeling a little like a zombie and I am having a glimmer of remembrance of those early days. At this particular moment I'm feeling really happy that I won't have to go through that sleeplessness again. Of course if you ask me on a day of particular mischievousness by the twins, I will gladly tell you that I would take those early days over the toddler days anytime. Ahhhh to forget.....
I'm not one to give up easily! So I figured it out. I basically clicked and unclicked until I got it to work. Not an exact science, but at least it was successful!
Of course I now feel totally unproductive as this quest for a new layout theme consumed most of my morning. Now it's time for my favorite time of the day...nap time. 2 hours of what should mostly be quiet.
I'm convinced that I am raising monkeys! They climb and jump off of everything. They hop on each other (and on me, given the opportunity!). It's amazing the amount of energy that they have on any given day. I try to think back to my childhood, but I swear I don't recall every having that unlimited source of energy. Maybe my Mommy years have erased all that....
So being that I am new at all this blogging stuff, I thought I would look into trying to customize my template. I googled XML Blogger templates and found plenty of them, but apparently you need a degree in programming to actually get it to work. Why, oh why is it so hard to do? You know not all of us who have blogs are uber-geeks! Or how about some easy to follow instructions that actually make sense? Oh well...I guess I will just have to settle into using a generic template for now.
I've never been one to really write much, but it seems that everyone has a Blog these days. Not sure why we suddenly have this initiative as a society to write down our every thought, but I figured I should join in. What could be more fun than chronicling our adventures raising twin toddlers??
I'm not sure if I even have anything interesting to write about, but I'll give it a shot.
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